Pinky says goodbye

Dear readers,
Dear friends,
Dear strangers...

A couple of months i went through a stage. I became a new person, i became Pinky.
I met new people. I went through new changes. But for the past couple of days i coudn't bring myself to write anything in this blog.
And today i realized why.
Pinky was gone :/
I couldn't find her. It felt like she was just a dream, that this whole blog was just a dream.
And so i've come to say goodbye for her.
I've come to thank everyone, the regulars, the people who never commented, even the people with the negative comments. You've all played important parts in Pinky's short life.
Thank you.

As a last favor for Pinky i'm going to ask you all to leave a comment, even if you've never left one before.
Goodbye

ti7idi..

So apparently the bf and i have put up a challenge :P
Who can go the longest without calling the other. Now it's been widely known that it's always me who gives in when it comes to these things and he has gotten this idea that i cannot go an entire day without talking to him, even if we're mad. Now i'm glad this time its done as a kind of fun-challenge because i feel like its my chance to show him that i really can go on for a while without talking to him. And so then he will look back at those days that i gave in and see them as "rational acts" and not "surrender" :P because that's what he thinks..So i ask from you this..HELP ME :P encourage me not to call and stay posted in case i have one of my panic attacks :P

Oh and im dying to see who loses :p (inshallah him inshallah him)
How long do you think this is going to take though ? :/ it's been an hour and a half since :P i'm thinking until tomorrow afternoon...?
We'll have to see hehe

Tagged

I have been tagged by Laialy.. and i have to mention 8 traits i want in a lover so here they are:

1) He's mysteriously silent most of the time
2) He's intelligent
3) He has a sense of humor
4) He's laid back, not high maintenance
5) He's not boring
6) He's fair
7) He's successful
8) He's passionate

The eight people i tag are:

1) Jan6a
2) Shoppa
3) Voluble Girl
4) Swair
5) Dalalism
6) Charisma
7) Dodo
8) dr. lost

Tagged ...

I've been tagged by a daydreamer ... you want to know a couple of my weird traits? :P hmm .. lets see..

1) usually when i "hit the sack" i sleep about an hour or so later..becuz from the first time i get into bed and tell myself that i'm going to sleep, i have to get up at least 3 times before i REALLY go to sleep. I think it's becuz i love that feeling of being exhausted, so i force myself to get up to get myself things, or wash up, or tell someone something.

2) unlike a daydreamer, i cant wear socks while im sleeping, even in the freezing cold of winter. Yet i wear them up until the last minute before i go to bed because i love the feeling of having my feet so cold when i get in bed.

3) I download random songs by artists i've never heard of. I'd think of a phrase or a title and just type it in and download whatever comes up.

4) i also type in random websites to see what pops up. latest examples (beach.com or something like sugar.com)

5) I dress in the bathroom after taking a shower. Never in my bedroom. dont know why.

6) sometimes i put my phone on silent and throw it in a drawer and leave it for a whole day just to have something to look forward to (that something being all the missed calls and msgs hehe)

i know i am very fathya (i have nothing better to do).

7) i find guys who wear dishdasha's and pull them up with one hand (on the side) when climbing stairs or something EXTREMELY HOT :P no matter what the guy looks like :P i have a thing for the way they hold it hehe

8) i love writing emails .. i wish ppl didn't find that so lame :/ i prefer writing emails to msging or talking on the phone ...

madree what else to say :S i hope that's enough hehe..

I tag...Dotsson, Shoppa, Dodo and hmm..Charisma? (if any of you have already done this sorry lol)

To all you confused ppl..

Okay so i realize that some people have gotten confused along the way. This is what basically happened...

Throughout my relationship with my bf, i met a new guy which i began liking. After getting to know the guy a bit more and exchanging numbers i found out that he and my bf were friends and hung out often. Now like many of you said, i had to make the "ultimate" decision. Which for a while was hard (and when i say a while i mean a couple of days lol).

You'll all be happy to know that i'm over my "fling" completely. I am no longer interested nor talking to the other guy. We just "drifted" off the past couple of days, the "spark" had gone away. And me and the bf are getting along GREAT! this experience has taught me to not look anymore and has made me love him even more. I regret drifting off and i'm really hoping it wont happen again.

And so dear readers, the "stranger" or as some may call him "the other guy" is out of the game. I've chosen the bf lol ... plz tell me you've all caught up and understand what's happening :P .. lol .. Other than that, nothing new has been happening in my life which is kind of sad :/

here's a couple of things i'm interested in finding out about you guys:

jan6a: where are you? (I vaguely remember you travelling off somewhere.) Are/did you have fun? Anymore mama stories? lol

shoppa: How'd your anniversary go? Details plz hehe (adree ligafa)

Charisma: abee new poemmmmm!! mashallah mashallah i love your writing.

Dottson: hmm i remember in one of your comments you mentioned doing something quite similar to my "date" with the bf at his house. Care to share more? :P are you seeing someone currently..? :P

Extinct-dodo: in one of your posts about ganoo9 you mentioned that you were feeling ishwaya flustered by his lack of "taghayer" in "your" lives. He was too busy/boring..etc.? lol .. hows that going? (ba3dain you kinda had a post about how u were disappointed in him i think?) ..

ADREEE YA NAS 7ADI MALGOOOFA! sorry :$ it's just that i got to thinking about you guys today and i noticed how much i missed you (hehehe) and so i was thinking that if i could talk to you what would i say? And those questions came to mind.

Anyways i have to go now..

Tad3ee lina doom..o mara7 inkhaleek ilyowm.

Allah yir7imik.

I didn't know i could feel so safe from someone that i've never met in my life.
Fi3lan 7asayt ib qeemtik now.
And i'm just scared.

OMG? SHIT? BLOODY HELL? (pick one)

OMG!
Lets call my bf: THE BF
Lets call the new guy: NEW GUY
Lets call pinky: SCREWED!!!!!!!!

Pinky grabs her phone, smiling, very cheerful and msgs THE BF.

Pinky: Hi honey...where are you?
THE BF: I'm at burger king getting dinner

Then Pinky remembered that she had to tell THE NEW GUY about this thing so she msgs him.

Pinky: Hey NEW GUY i forgot to tell you about blah blah blah
NEW GUY: oh yeah!! thanks for telling me! Where r u btw?
Pinky: At home you?
NEW GUY: Burger King with this guy..

Pinky then messages THE BF

Pinky: Honey, who you with?
THE BF: This guy..we're getting dinner.

THE BF and THE NEW GUY were both enjoying their lovely dinner whilst talking to PINKY :D
Now it would only take a tiny drift of an eyeball for one guy to notice Pinky's number on the other guy's mobile and all hell would break loose.

So Pinky decides to calm down and not freak out. She did what any normal girl in her position would do.
FAINT.

Pinky...EXPOSED

SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED.

Pinky talked to this stranger. Pinky wrote poems about this stranger. Pinky was falling for this stranger.
Stranger begins asking about Pinky. Pinky lies, Pinky's lies get out of hand, Stranger figures out they are lies.

Stranger kept asking why Pinky wouldn't tell him who she was, or wouldnt tell him ANYTHING about herself.
Pinky got curious and asked around about his email.
And she found out who he was.
A guy that had graduated from her school a year before.

Pinky gets sick of the lies and tells the guy to call her. She gives him her number and he calls.

"listen flan (for non-arabic speaking people, again, FLAN is a term used to talk about someone without exposing his name...) im going to tell you the truth and if u never want to talk to me after it im fine with that but u dont deserve all these lies and i cant keep making them up and i cant tell you only half the truth. So here goes...i met you by accident, didn't expect all of this..blah blah blah .. the reason i didnt want to tell u about myself is because u know me u went to the same highschool i go to now..."

and after a couple of minutes he knew who i was.
We laughed about it and he told me that it was fine and that we'd keep msging and stay friends.

God give me sanity cuz i really think im insane :/

Dance

You stand behind me, facing my back.
You cannot see my face as i hesitate one last time before turning around.
I was ready to see you,
Ready for you to see me,
Ready to face the music...
Ready to dance.

And so, nervously i wait for your reaction,
Something that will last less than a second,
Something i could miss entirely,
But i see it,
A tiny smile before you compose yourself.

You extend your arm...
I'm satisfied with your reaction,
I take your hand and you pull me close.
It's my turn to react...
and i like what i see.

The music starts, and its a bold instrument,
It doesn't sing,
It screams the music out,
And we begin to dance
With so much confidence our movements are anything but graceful,
It's like were marching,

And they were marching...
To the powerful beat of their love..
And when the curtains that surrounded them revealed the couple dancing,
The entire world could see that it was Pinky ...
Pinky with her flan.

The Arms Of a Stranger

I fell into the arms of a stranger,
So strange he had no name or face,
And though he did not know me,
His hands were strong enough,
He seemed to understand me,
And pulled me into his arms,
He decided to protect me,
Though he himself did not know my name,

And though I knew his time,
Like it came would have to go,
I began to realize that I dreaded it,
But to have him stay would ruin it all,
Because if he did,
He wouldnt be a stranger anymore.